Now, we wait

Our final step is complete – I submitted our match letters to the agency today. Now, we wait.

I think the unknown is what scares me the most at this point. Maybe “scares” is not the right word…how about “intimidates.” Being the planner that I am, it is very hard to have so many variables. Our match letter was finished in May, but we kept waiting to submit it. We were nervous to submit it because we had a few leads on potential birth moms. We kept asking “what if we submit and then she calls us?” or “what if we wait and miss out on other opportunities?”

One thing I have learned is that you cannot play the “what if” game when going through the adoption process – it will eat you alive. We have made the mistake of asking the “what if” questions since we started trying to have a baby. There is always something that you are going to be able to second guess. There will always be a million “what if” opportunities. You just have to trust that the path you are on is the correct path.

There is no way of knowing whether we are submitting something at the correct time, or if we are making the right decisions. We constantly pray for God’s guidance as we go through the process, knowing that He will lead us in the right direction.

For those that have been keeping us in their prayers, I would ask that you add a young woman named Krystina to your prayer list. She is pregnant and has considered adoption. It seems like she is having a difficult time figuring out what she should do. I pray every day that she is comfortable with whatever decision she makes, and that she makes that decision based on what is best for her and the child she is carrying.