Hi ho, hi ho, it's back to work I go.

I am trying to decide how I feel about going back to work. My immediate reaction is excitement. While I wouldn't trade my time with CJ for anything, I enjoy my job and have missed it over the past few months. I was so used to working that it was quite a transition for me to stay home. On the other hand, I know how great it would be if I could stay home and spend each day with our little man. I have really enjoyed watching him grow and develop. While it hasn't always been easy, it is an experience like no other. My "proud" moments are vastly different than they are with my job. Examples of new proud moments - waiting it out while he cries before taking a nap, giving him a bath by myself, and learning how to do a lot of things around the house with just one hand. They may seem trivial, but they bring me great joy.

It's been funny to hear people's reactions when I tell them that I plan to go back to working full time. "Oh, you mean you're not staying home?" It's as if my son will develop some horrible condition if I am not the person caring for him. I'll admit that I was very apprehensive at first, until we got our childcare squared away. Now that I know who will be watching him, I feel so much better! I'm excited for him to have so much interaction with other children as he grows up.

I'm sure that I'll be sad the first few days that I am back at work, but I'll get into my routine again. At that point, I'll appreciate my time with him even more. I'll be living for my evenings and weekends. ;) It also helps knowing that in June, Matt will become the stay-at-home parent for two months. Maybe one day we'll be in a position for me to stay home, but for now we're grateful to God that we have great people to help care for him.